Relationship-phobes

So last night i was called a Relationship-phobe by a person who knows me very well- and who sometimes says startlingly offensives statement about me, that after a fair amount of hindsight turn out to be true.

The latest comment refers to my lack of enthusiasm in pursuing any romantic relationships with guys- despite my current position: a young, fresh and generally openminded university student.

I've put some thought into the matter and have decided that although i am certainly in no rush to get into a relationship, calling me a relationship-phobe (phobe meaning afraid) would be inaccurate. I do not fear it- i'm just being logical. All around me people are jumping into relationships with random people they know next to nothing about- and then crying their hearts out when they see their lives crumbling. Why should i be in a rush to experience that?

"A fool doesn't learn from his own mistakes but it is an absolute idiot who doesn't learn from the mistakes of other people!"

-Frasier Crane

Also anyone who knows me would say that i am impatient and impulsive. Oddly enough it seems that 'love' is the one field i am in no rush to discover. It's not really my fault- my heart's just hibernating. Luckily i love my own company =)

And since Cameron is still on my favourite people list- here's an original song from him, that sorta goes with this post- play from 0.45 to go straight from the beginning of the song
(also interesting fact- Cameron means Crooked Nose)



 (note: links are not posted under Youtube videos anymore since you can click the 'YouTube' icon on the video and it'll take you straight to the source.)

Darren Criss

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just sigh....

So true

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is it sad that i walk around keeping my eyes peeled for anything dentistry related? nah, i don't think so either

Everything aches

My knees squeak, my back aches and my shoulders sag.

Perhaps badminton 3 times a week isn't the best idea. Or maybe i should start doing yoga.... :/


ouchy it hurts to walk upstairs

I'm glad i've grown out of this stage

Love can wait

Lately it seems that everywhere I turn people are in love.

-Every book i pick up has some romantic, epic love component.
-Every film or tv show has stunning romantic quests.
-Just walking down the street- hands are held, lips meet, clandestine lovers' smiles are shared.

None of which I can remotely relate to...

So I've just been sitting here thinking about life and love. Have i not lived life to the full unless i've been in love? Is that the purpose of life?

Also why the continued focus on lovers' love? Is the love one feels for their family and friends less important or powerful than the love felt for one's 'soulmate'.

I am only 19. I am in no rush to find 'the one'. In fact the more i think and walk through life's haze- i realize that perhaps it is more trouble than it is worth. Why is everyone so desperate to find 'the one'? Why can't you be just as happy being an independent person? I had a conversation with a friend about this the other day- not many people live their lives intending to stay alone forever. Why not?

The other day i had an epiphany of sorts. A massive, air purifying epiphany. I had a sudden clarity about what i wanted from life and myself. Most certainly i have realised that if i am not 100% content and sure about who i am within myself- how could i have any hope of dedicating so much time and devotion to a significant other?

Just ramblings from a thoughtful mind.