Is there such a condition as Chronically disorganised? Or a Chronic procrastinator?

It takes a tremendous amount of effort to make myself focus- and i swear i am constantly distracted by stupid things...

-_______-

what's this you say? a post at this hour? that can only mean one thing: i've got deadlines due for a few hours time. this is true... SIGH

Life is a test, 

It is only a test.

If this were your actual life,

You would have been given better instructions!

Anonymous, cited in Pattishall, 1989, p. 47

Gleek at uni

Hell yeah i got into the Glee group at uni! I'm soooo very excited :D

Now i just need to meet a straight Blaine (Darren Criss = as close as you could probably get to the perfect guy)

and i know that sounds a bit boy crazy- but this time it's for a very good reason. promise :D

Anyway Glee totally rocks! :D

We Are Young

Men and women cannot truly be friends

I've spent 19 years of my life being a firm believer (one of the few things i firmly believed) that boys and girls could be good friends. Everything doesn't always have to come down to attraction and sex.

However looking back over every single friendship i've had with a guy, begs to differ.

Breaks my heart to say it- but it seems like 50% of the population is off limits as possible genuine, mutual, two-way, etc friendships.

Unless the guy is gay of course.


So there we have it. Might as well stop trying. Growing up is such fun.

note

The following phrases are not particularly helpful when feeling stressed:
-Calm down
-Chill out
-Slap af (danish btw)
-Stop being crap
-Easy now
-Steady on
-Just relax
-It'll be fine
-You're doing your best, so don't feel bad
-Don't worry
-Don't be so tense
-This is what you look like *and then a re-enactment of what you did*

So refraining from saying/ doing the aforementioned would be greatly appreciated.
That is all.

Today i bought 6 CDs for £3

Which is an AMAZING deal. Especially since it included classics like Frank Sinatra and Barbra Streisand.
Everything that was wrong with the world is now right

=D

I seriously need to get those glasses!!

Exercising the Spiritual Muscle

I watched a few clips from a webseries by Oprah Winfrey- it features Eckhart Tolle (the spiritual guy i've mentioned before). In the clips of the video i watched they discuss the Ego. Now the ego Eckhart talks about is different to the conventional ego (being arrogant) most people might use. When Eckhart talks about the ego he means- the part of a person that feels the need to identify with things, people, places, opinions, whatever.
So for example, buying a designer bag because it makes you feel superior to others- because it in some way adds to your perceived selfworth- that is your ego.
But that is only one example to explain it- i find it quite difficult to fully express all the dimensions of it in summary form (Eckhart explains it in about 2 chapters- but i shan't post the entire thing here, lol)

"The realm of consciousness is much vaster than thought can grasp. When you no longer believe everything you think, you step out of thought and see clearly that the thinker is not who you are.

-Echkart Tolle

See there is a lot of that kind of stuff in his books- it seems straightforward in principle, but it is very tricky to apply and fully understand.


Realisations
So these are some "aha" moments (Oprah also calls them 'lightbulb' moments) i had whilst watching today.

-It is not possible for other people to hurt me. They are just offering their observations- and i am giving them meaning.
-Stop being dependent on love and approval - in a way that is identification by other people's opinion.
-Another person's criticism isn't necessarily bad or wrong. But it is important not to take it offensively- a criticism is simply their take of you from the story of their lives.
-Love should not be a trade- true love is unconditional

The last comment especially resonated with me due to recent events in my life. Following on from the 'Elation of Separation' post i did, i have realised that love (in all its beautiful forms) is only true if it is unconditional. So what the other party believes or does, should not be able to sway how much you love them.

"In a genuine relationship, there is an outward flow or open, alert attention toward the other person in which there is no wanting whatsoever... The ego always either wants something, or if it believes there is nothing to get from the other, it is in a state of utter indifference: It doesn't care about you."

-Echkart Tolle, A New Earth (pg 84)

Simply Sondheim

 

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 Looks like it's going to be another night of Sondheim. Gotta love the classics! <3
(also who can resist Raul Esparza- he's magical)